First of all, let me take this last day of 2009 to recap some highlights of my 2009:

In January I realized that I have started to feel quite comfortable remembering and talking about Jezebel. After 4 long years of my active mourning I have finally found ease in loving Jezebel in her death. Jezebel, my soul and my truth …

When I heard the news about my mother’s death in February 2007 my world fell apart. I was totally in shock and all I could do at that time was quoting this passage:

my heart is sore pained

within me

and the terrors of death

are fallen upon me

fearfulness and trembling

are come upon me

and horror hath

overwhelmed me

and I said,

oh … that had I wings like a dove

for then I would fly away

and be at rest

In February this year, I found some kind of peace in my grief. I also realized that the best way to honor my mother, whom I owe my life and my existence, is by remembering and celebrating her colorful life every day. And I will continue doing so for the rest of my life.  

I have always been an independent person by nature, and in March I decided not to take the traditional route with my career anymore. I decided to work independently. To do so, I had to arrange and prepare everything that needed to be done (and other things that still needs to be done).

In regard to my career decision in March I met my career coach. He is a very straight-to-the-point person who has given me some guidance and advice I need to become an entrepreneur. One advice that I particulary remember is: “Never take criticism personally!” And in the same month I launched Blog Affairs® - a blog that covers social media tips & tricks for newbies.

In May I started to work on my career projects including setting up my business plan, investment budget preparation, communication and marketing strategies, accounting, building my business website and so on, and so on …

In June I was given a surprise ticket to Sensation White and I surprised myself with actually enjoying that kind of dance event. I thought I only enjoyed music of classical, R&B and Pop’s genres. Honestly, I would never considered going to some events that attract only teenagers but I was wrong, I actually like dance music as well.

I spent July, August, September and October with a terrible pain due to inflammation and torn muscles in my arms, my back and my shoulders. After refusing to take some painkillers longer than 2 weeks I was sent by my GP straight to a physiotherapist. I was a little bit sceptical about doing some physical theraphy but fortunately, my physiotherapist turned up to be a very patient and wonderful lady, who guided me how to exercise properly. In the same months I launched Libelcom®, Libelcom Community®, Libelcom ZZP Community® and World Dutch-Indonesian Community®. No wonder that I have got that terrible pain in the first place!!

By the end of November I launched libellez® (this blog you are visiting now) and in the same month, after almost 5 years of avoiding, I decided to pay a visit to my dentist! (It was not a great idea at all). Unfortunately, she has decided to repair my teeth as often as possible! Well, there is always a downside of everything.

In the beginning of December my sister had to be hospitalized. I am glad that she is recovering quite well. Hopely that she will get better very soon! All in all,  2009 has been a wonderful and yet challenging year to me.

Secondly, let me also take this last day of 2009 to thank my family, my friends and those people I have mentioned above, for supporting, guiding and especially being there for me when I needed them the most. I truely hope that 2010 will bring us nothing but love, joy, peacefulness, health and happiness.

Thirdly, let’s start the cowndown! Thank you for visiting libellez® and I see you all next year!!